We had some crap happen:
Our Samoyed, Serena, had to have her left eye removed for an acute attack of glaucoma. When she wasn’t responding to drugs and was in constant pain we opted to have the eye removed, which is really the only thing to do in these situations. They eye had gone blind anyway and we couldn’t stand to see her in pain so out it came last Saturday. She is bouncing back remarkably well, but her parents are exhausted and traumatized by the whole thing. Worry over the second eye has now commenced, but thankfully her latest reading for pressure was blessedly low. She will need to have it checked monthly going forward for that inevitable day when glaucoma strikes again. For now we are loving on her and are grateful she is healing and feeling better already.
Our sidewalk was inspected and the city has commanded we fix what is “hazardous” – and I will tell you now the cracks are not remotely hazardous so this is complete bullshit. The repairs, since we live on a corner lot and we have trees on the sidewalk strip contributing to sidewalk cracks, will be around $3,000.00 to fix.
I’ve been asked by Mike to attend a seminar on seismic retrofitting in his place because it conflicts with his drawing class. I’m not jazzed but I’ll suck it up and go. Mike constantly worries about earthquakes and we often go around in circles when we discuss the process of retrofitting our home so this might help us. I’ve been feeling the need to hibernate lately though which means any social activity outside of the normal routine seems a little overwhelming right now (the curse of the introvert) but I’ll pull up my big girl panties and get on with it.
I won’t go into the complete and utter betrayal I have been feeling and trying to manage at work with any level of detail. I’ve a long history in my old corporate life of being taken advantage of, but really didn’t expect it from my life here in higher education. I’m trying to manage my mood but it’s been tough going. Higher education opportunities are not great here in the Portland area. I’ve been contemplating (dreaming of) a career change. This is one of those times I wish I could just give notice and move on, but in this job market it isn’t really possible. For now I will enjoy that fantasy and keep playing the lottery.
On a more positive note (because wow I’m bringing everyone down here)!
We have a nephew! We haven’t met him yet because he lives in Brooklyn, NY, but we love him already and he is adorable. Everett Jack was born on November 13 and we can’t wait to plan a trip out to NY to see him.
We had a fantastic winter/holiday break. We headed out to Florida, the Fort Meyers area, to visit with Mike’s parents who are lovely people (the picture in the post is of the sun setting in Fort Meyers). The weather was great and it was incredibly relaxing. We never really got on the East Coast time zone so we slept in every morning and kind of hung out, cooked, did last minute holiday shopping, and took a little side-trip out to Sarasota one afternoon for lunch and to just look around. It was exactly what we needed and we really enjoyed it.
I’ve decided to pursue more formal training for Shamanic Healer work. I haven’t mentioned my long history of Shamanic Journey meditation (since 2000) on this blog. I generally don’t offer the information up to people unless they know me well. My practice has taken a sudden shift and, for reasons that would probably bore you, I’ve decided to see if I could learn to do for others what a Shamanic Practitioner did for me when I needed some help. In March I will begin a year long program to this end (or beginning as the case may hopefully be). I have also made a deal with myself that over this year I will create things that I will eventually sell on Etsy. These are all small little seeds of ideas for making an eventual career change. I never thought I would want the stress of being self-employed, but the truth is that I’ve had just about enough of…well I can’t think of kind words here and the less said the better. Time to stop working so hard for people who will just chew me up and spit me out. I’ll move on just a little bit wiser. So I am being kind to myself, and I will honor my feelings of anger, disgust, and disappointment; all normal under the circumstances (uncomfortable but understandable emotions). Shattered illusions are always painful, but good in the long run. So maybe you will consider asking yourself, like I did, what you would do if you won the lottery…and then forget about waiting to win the lottery and take steps to make that happen. Still play the lottery of course because that would be AWESOME.
With all of these changes occurring I have been thinking about a website overhaul, possibly with a focus on Shamanic work. I’m thinking the focus will be: Shamanic Work; Garden/Recipes; and Creative Work which will eventually be for sale. I was also kind of thinking about posting a Tarot Card of the Day. I started reading Tarot cards when I was 14 or so, but kind of put them away around 1999. Recently I decided to take them out again and it has been really great getting back into them. It might be fun to post something like this on a daily basis to challenge myself and get me in the habit of posting. Plus, Tarot Card of the Day = FUN. We shall see…ideas are percolating which is always good.